A Random Moment in Life

I haven't posted since 2020 because I've been off and on homeless. From moving state to moving to live with new people, life has been hard. Please bare with me while I try to find new content for this blog since I've been inactive for a while. I hope all are well. Thank you.

Out of the Matrix Listen to this new group they are great

Last week I had a nightmare I was trying to make sure no one had a certain book that wasn't suppose to be opened and if it was the world would end. My sister's had it and we're going to open it out of curiosity and I screamed don't open it are you trying to kill us all how did you get it anyway it was locked away for a reason. Then I woke up. I checked my book collection to make sure I didn't have it and thank God I didn't.

If your a 90's baby and love gaming you have more than likely heard of Crash Bandicoot whether it be one of the games played on the playstation or playstation 2. For those who have been waiting for a way to play those games on the PS4 this is it. This Crash Bandicoot game is a remastered version of Crash Bandicoot, Crash Bandicoot 2 and Crash Bandicoot Warped. So let's get our controllers ready and jump into this blast from the past!

This game is such a thrill. It is like watching a movie but you get to choose how it ends while also talking to a "counselor" who asks you about your fears and feelings to make it acquainted to your personality making the experience feel as if it is happening in front of you and may I add WITHOUT V.R. On this aspect alone it makes this game a must buy.

This game I borrowed and then bought since I liked it so much. It is a good sneak around and kill people game and of course not recommended for anyone under 18 years old. Now if you like these kind of games it is a real challenge as you have so many different missions. It took a week to beat it but only because i was in between jobs at the time. You can go back after you beat it too to finish undone side missions in different parts of the game and of course do it again. I liked it and give it a 7 out of ten.

I have personally beaten this game twice over and love it. I borrowed it from the library as my funds are quite depleted lately. Although it is a very short game that can be beaten in one day, it is a good "on the edge of your seat" game to play as you go through different characters lives as A.I. robots made to serve humans in a new world. I do advise though not to play this game in front of children as it has some language. I hope you like it too! Thanks for reading my review!

I realize i haven't posted much in a while i usually just am too busy with life to post much. I have recently been told that all of the mental illnesses put on my record all fold into one illness. That is P.T.S.D. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is not always someone whose been in the military field as many do not understand. It is also common for those who go through traumatic events in there lives to get this mental illness. I have been through a lot I don't talk about on here because I do not like reliving the experience. So therefore I am trying to conclude by saying sorry that I have been away and that I have been taking care of my mental health.

 

Idk if its from lack of me being on my medication or from looking in too deep into slenderman but i swear not too long ago i saw slenderman standing right in front of me on the sidewalk i was in front of mercy hospital downtown in grand rapids waiting for the bus and as i walked up to the stop i saw him no face and long slender figure with a business suit it scared me but i still asked "hello? are u ok?" because it was starring right at me. I have recently stopped looking up information anymore on this and if u are curious about this figure i suggest NOT looking too deep because he will find u. I feel if i keep digging on info i will be in danger. I hope I will not encounter him again...

This is a true story... Once when I was 14 I saw a dead killer I don't know his name but instead of a pine tree I saw him standing there with a knife and a evil smile Later I found out my neighbor had been suffocated and stabbed to death above us and her boyfriend, the killer, killed himself.

The reason my bias is TOP aka Choi Seung hyun: From following his career so far I have learned much about my bias of Big Bang and it has broght me to this conclusion I find that I am much like him myself I act like a child at times and people call me stupid (bingu) and I do not like being called that as much as he hates being nicknamed Bingu TOP, I suck at dancing yet i still try to dance just like he does, I love to act and he is an actor(although I am not an actress), and so overall this are just some of the reasons I have him as my bias and love his music and acting and personality dearly.  PS. Gonna be watchin that Committement movie as soon as possible lol.

A MOMENT OF SILENCE FOR A DEAR FRIEND AND OVERALL GOOD PERSON PEOPLE CALL MERANII WHO HAS PASSED TODAY DUE TO THIS CRUEL WORLD BY SUICIDE NOTE TO READERS:Please do not ask me questions about what happened and why. 

"If im a bad person you don't like me well i guess ill make my own way its a circle a mean cycle i cant excite u anymore where's your gavel your jury whuts my offense this time well sentence me to another life." This is my favorite line from this song.

Put your hands up like the country’s been liberated Run like you’ll twist your ankles Shake it like you have a spasm Everyone sing along My name is T to the A to the E (to the) Y to the A N G (hot, it’s hot) I’m always hotly burning up (boiling) Girls cry over my body, my songs Whether it’s a slow jam or a dance, just trust your body Don’t be scared, just close your eyes Wanna get high? Then be my pair We’ll go on a rollercoaster ride tonight There’s no seat belt, you just need to sit next to me Don’t stop baby don’t kill my vibe Because I like how things are going right now To the left, to the right, follow me just like that Yeah ah ye ye yeah Put your hands up like the country’s been liberated Run like you’ll twist your ankles Shake it like you have a spasm Everyone sing along Ringa linga ring ringa linga ring (like) Ringa linga ring ringa linga ring (like) Ringa linga ring ringa linga ring Ringa linga (ahssa) ringa linga (it’s good) It’s a fiery Friday night so be caref...

I raise my eyes Shattered is my view Tears fall like gunshots I am dead now Do you feel happy now? Happy that you killed me? I am dead inside because of all this You call me names I am tired I am so so tired Yet i cant sleep I pound the wall Hoping someone will hear my cries I hit the ground in anger I sing my heart out I wear my heart on my sleeve yet that heart is torn over and over and over again I have no more pieces to tear Can you all leave me alone now? Have u had yur fun? Or do you laugh at this and say Oh go kill yurself Yes thats what you want But i wont do it Because I am bigger then you or anyone or anything will know I am strong I will fight I am not sitting quitely I Will Overcome

Why do people have to be so horrid? Why can't we just be nice and civil people? Everyday we should think of others before we speak Please just stop the bullying  To My Readers:   Thank you for reading the above comments. If this helps in any way please +1 it and share this. I love all my readers and viewers and followers.

What Kind of question is this!!!!!! Of course he is hurt by these things !!!!! Look at his face VIP's does it seem like he is hurt?! Of course it does.

I feel I cannot sleep again The pain still hasnt subsided I need sleep yet i am awoke Why do I cry for u? Are u crying for me? Was I wrong? Or was I right? I ask myself many questions Im tired of what has become of us Im tired of what we r We have become Lets see How did u say it? "more then SEX" What do u mean by this? Am I just a toy to u? Do I seem cheap and easy? I am tired of excuses I am done

Hurt This is one word I cannot explain enough Hurt My heart is hurt My heart bleeds I ended it today But even tho I ended it I feel worse then u do Can u not see that I love u Yet u use me It will take a while for me to heal Not 1 day Maybe not even a week Maybe not even a year But it will be a while Relationships? No im not interested Im too depressed to even fathom Fathom that i need another suitors I have many But I dont want them I dont want this attention Do not call me beautiful I appreciate the words I say thank u But inside i say do not say this I dont want it I want to be by myself plz Just leave me alone Do not "hit" on me im not interested I would much rather listen to my music Just be in my own bubble Ignore everything I Am Hurt