A Random Mom

Hands shaky Breath shallow Body aching Heart torn I pray for hope Hope is within me I search for happiness I try to smile Yet i frown I am striken I am blue I am sadness I feel the breath coming I let it out I am exhausted I cannot sleep I work Tired I talk Sadily I hear Yet i cant speak I type Yet i feel pain Everything will be ok they say Everything will be alright Keep your head up I have heard these words many a times Yet they go thru me like a ghost They dont affect me I cry once more I shed many tears I wipe my sorrow Yet i feel more trickling down My pain is big Like a anaconda It poisons my heart I need a solution I try to find the vile I try to take it to help me live Yet after the bite theres a sting Even with the vile i mourn I cry for help My hands they r numb From pounding the wall My wall has many holes One for my friends i love that have past One for my family One for my desperation One for my anger One for my sadness a

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/getinvolved/strong-support-network.aspx Day turns to night Night turns to tears Tears turn to anger anger turns to desperation My friend why Why do this I say i am here for u You r determined U say i cant convice u I try my best I am selfish I want u to live I love u Part of my heart aches I feel broken I feel that im not helping I feel uneeded Like my words r shit U say fuck life Stay here plz i beg u You say who is selfish the one killing themselves or the one wanting me to stay here The answer is me But i know life is hard Harder then ever I cant stop u I live too far U live so far away I wish i could stop u Wish i could hug u and convince u Wish i could tell u in person How much my heart aches I am crying You say im not worth crying for But yet i am balling My eyes they r red My heart it is broken I hope to see u in the morning I love you Kai TO MY READERS:  If you are reading this please make so